Love, oh love. I gotta tell you how I feel about you.

Dear beloved readers,

Well, to tell you the truth, I did the unthinkable about two days ago.

You see, there was this girl that I was having a mad crush on. Met her while she was working as an Insurance Agent, attracting customers on a busy street full of the working class. Me being naive and all, thought that she genuinely wanted to just complete a survey and get it done with. Lo and behold, we started making small talk. And I was instantly mesmerized. :)

She displayed a very bubbly personality and laughter that melted my heart. We chatted about the usual stuff, the weather and all, and I could sense the intelligence and warmth behind this lady. So against all hope I asked for her number. She gave it with a smile, I think she too thought that we had some sort of connection.

That was eight months ago.

You see, National Service really had put a dent on my free time. The only contact that we had were the messages that I would sent her through the phone. And I was a very, very, erratic messenger, mind you.

Which brings us to what I did a few days ago. You see, me, being the SUPER ULTRA scaredy-cat that I am, never got the courage to ask her out. Consulted various friends about this, and the result was a large consensus of face-palms all around. I was just THAT afraid.

One day, I just told myself to let it go and just see what happens. So I did send her a message. (After careful consultation and editing by my dear friend Jasmine who constantly berated me "to be MORE CONFIDENT!")

From the bottom of my heart, I told her that I was very mesmerized by her the very first time I saw her and was enchanted by her eyes. Then I told her that I would most probably crash and burn by asking her out for coffee to get to know her better.

You know, life is damn funny in a couple of odd ways. You work so hard to get something that you want, but sometimes, all you have to is ask. And hope and pray with all your heart.

She said yes. Yes, I would love to have coffee with you. Which, after I received the message the next morning, sent me to a state of complete bliss and serenity. Nothing anyone said or did could spoil my day.

So now, I'm planning on which would be the perfect place for the date. A few locations had already come to my mind (my dear friend Solihin smacked me in the head for thinking of Starbucks), but I'm settling for a cozy Arabian Cafe. Hope it all turns out fine. Haven't even set the date yet. Pffth. Haha.

Moral of the story kids: Just asketh, and thou shalt receiveth. Haha. :) Mama always said that life is like a box of chocolates, you never know whatcha' gonna get.

Hope it all goes well,
Lokman

Out of the fire and into the sea. Soccer outing, anyone?

Dear beloved readers,

Hey blog, how's it been? Lengthy time since I've touched you. I'm supposed to be writing again, cause my counselor says it's therapeutic for my soul? Whatever. The thing is, so much frustration, so little time, don't know where to begin. She says to just bear it all, so here I go, writing while listening to the "Ballad of Mona Lisa" by Panic! At The Disco. Kinda' like the vibe of the song. The innocent soul? The wronged? Injustice finally revealed? Ok, I'm a take a step back, getting too morbid and sad here.

Well, the thing is, I want to so much be in touch with my friends again, it all seems so very difficult with the fiasco that just happened between us a few weeks ago and I don't know how to patch things up again. Since when did planning an event get to be so stressful? I mean, all you have to do is to call up a few friends, set a location and date, and be there right? How hard is that? Well, for the people in my life, that simple request seems to take mammoth amounts of time and energy to accomplish. Some have work on that day, others can't make it, some can only make it for a while, yadda yadda yadda... The list seems to go on and on. And in my mind, the main factor I keep deducting that is keeping us apart is simple: Work.

I'm not saying that work is not important, I mean, we all gotta' be paying our own bills right, but what I really feel is that we, AS FRIENDS, really need to make it work by setting aside some of our time for each other. Eh, now I can really see that writing really is therapeutic. :)

I've identified the main villain here. So next, I gotta take steps to vanquish him away! Well, what I did in that respect was to organize a soccer event. All expense paid trip by me. Oh boy, yeah, smart idea, dumb for my wallet. Everything will be provided for (gotta' factor in the food, drinks, transportation) and all they gotta do is just show up. Simple and sweet. You see, I'm the type of guy who really likes big outings where all of my friends are together, having a good time.

Good lord, please don't let it fail on me now.


Truthfully and as always,
Lokman

P.S. Any of you guys out there from the States? Don't see a lot of Asian dudes writing like me, don't ya? :P